Dilemma Between TEST and RESPONSIBILITY...

The moment i'm typing this blog ere, I really feel like banging my head against the wall. I could feel the stress is all over me and I'm buried under piles of works and responsibility without a small space or even time for me to breath. Damn.. give me a break man...

Recently I was elected as the President of the Biomedical Science Club in my Fac and i really feel the pressure on me. Well, to be frank, I knew I can handle this post and I've too the confidence that I'll be able to bring this club to glory. However, sometimes when i come to sit down alone in my room like now, I'll always have a dilemma in choosing to put all my effort into my studies or my club. I'd always tell myself that this is all just up to how well I could manage my time for both. Well, as I always say 'Action speaks louder than Words.' . When it comes to reality, it's hard for you to make a decision like that. I've handled and seen things and responsibilties which are a few times more than being a president of a club and I've taken up big responsibilities by handling accounts of the school, being the president of a club, secretary, treasurer and members of a few clubs at the same time, but, it just work well for me and I'm so proud to say that I've been able to maintain my results despite having all these responsibilities. I know deep down inside me why I have such a dillemma though I'm just holding a president post of a faculty's club which comparatively is just a small thing compared to the responsibilities by holding few major posts at a time in the past. I know clearly what is in me that makes me feel so uncertain. It is the RESULTS... Well, no doubt, the moment I step into the gate of university, I vowed to put in all my effort just into my studies. However, just like usual, things doesn't always appear the way you want it to be and somehow I got myself hooked up to few major post in my course. ITS IRONICAL RITE? I'm so glad that I've got a very good result in the previous semester. I would say that I'm really proud of myself cause it is all my hard work. However, the thing is that I really wanna maintain this result in my current semester and that is why I ended up in a dilemma. I'm always putting stress and pressure on myself to get a CGPA of 4.0 and that makes me feel reluctant to put in my soul into the club as I always do in the past. BUT, that is not me. That is definitely not me. I'm a person that will fulfill all my responsibilty to the best I can. Gosh.....

BUT GUYS, NO DOUBT K.

I'M STILL THE ONE I USED TO BE.

I'LL NOT LET ANYONE OF YOU DOWN and I'LL SHOW THE WORLD THAT I'LL WORK HARD.

I COULD MAINTAIN BOTH OF THEM AND MAKE IT ONE OF THE MOST GLORIEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE JUST LIKE THE GOOD OLD DAYS IN VICTORIA INSTITUTION.

I KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE HERE THAT I CAN MAKE HISTORY AGAIN HERE!!!

Note: Thanks to all of you that supposted me all this while and especially my dear for always been there for me when I need you the most. Its you who made me realise what I'm capable of. I love you!!!