Dilemma Between TEST and RESPONSIBILITY...

The moment i'm typing this blog ere, I really feel like banging my head against the wall. I could feel the stress is all over me and I'm buried under piles of works and responsibility without a small space or even time for me to breath. Damn.. give me a break man...

Recently I was elected as the President of the Biomedical Science Club in my Fac and i really feel the pressure on me. Well, to be frank, I knew I can handle this post and I've too the confidence that I'll be able to bring this club to glory. However, sometimes when i come to sit down alone in my room like now, I'll always have a dilemma in choosing to put all my effort into my studies or my club. I'd always tell myself that this is all just up to how well I could manage my time for both. Well, as I always say 'Action speaks louder than Words.' . When it comes to reality, it's hard for you to make a decision like that. I've handled and seen things and responsibilties which are a few times more than being a president of a club and I've taken up big responsibilities by handling accounts of the school, being the president of a club, secretary, treasurer and members of a few clubs at the same time, but, it just work well for me and I'm so proud to say that I've been able to maintain my results despite having all these responsibilities. I know deep down inside me why I have such a dillemma though I'm just holding a president post of a faculty's club which comparatively is just a small thing compared to the responsibilities by holding few major posts at a time in the past. I know clearly what is in me that makes me feel so uncertain. It is the RESULTS... Well, no doubt, the moment I step into the gate of university, I vowed to put in all my effort just into my studies. However, just like usual, things doesn't always appear the way you want it to be and somehow I got myself hooked up to few major post in my course. ITS IRONICAL RITE? I'm so glad that I've got a very good result in the previous semester. I would say that I'm really proud of myself cause it is all my hard work. However, the thing is that I really wanna maintain this result in my current semester and that is why I ended up in a dilemma. I'm always putting stress and pressure on myself to get a CGPA of 4.0 and that makes me feel reluctant to put in my soul into the club as I always do in the past. BUT, that is not me. That is definitely not me. I'm a person that will fulfill all my responsibilty to the best I can. Gosh.....

BUT GUYS, NO DOUBT K.

I'M STILL THE ONE I USED TO BE.

I'LL NOT LET ANYONE OF YOU DOWN and I'LL SHOW THE WORLD THAT I'LL WORK HARD.

I COULD MAINTAIN BOTH OF THEM AND MAKE IT ONE OF THE MOST GLORIEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE JUST LIKE THE GOOD OLD DAYS IN VICTORIA INSTITUTION.

I KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE HERE THAT I CAN MAKE HISTORY AGAIN HERE!!!

Note: Thanks to all of you that supposted me all this while and especially my dear for always been there for me when I need you the most. Its you who made me realise what I'm capable of. I love you!!!

Different People, Different Behaviour...

Since the day I stepped into the gate of university, it seems like the campus is just exactly like a small community or a small world with all kinds of people, or I would say all types of people within its very own boundary of the campus. I was thrilled at times, in fact, shocked when i come across with some people that possess very very weird personalities which I would say I've not yet come across before in my life so far. Weird, but true, there are even such people that actually follows the daily routine of others like say their roommate. Does that sounds abit gay? Well, in fact, in my opinion thats damn gay and irritating. Anyway, I knew this person for some time and I did not really notice that he's such a person until i come to know a friend of his whom appears to be his rom mate reveals everything about him to me. Imagine this. YOu have a roommate and this roommate follows everything that you do till the extend that he will even eat the same thing as you. You would say that it might be a coincidence or something. but how do you explain this when the same thing happen for a week. Worst still, he can be so irritating that he can run down to the cafe to buy the same thing that you are having for your breakfast although they don't have it. Imagine that.... weird huh? Then, I came to know another friend that is an Indian from India. Well, I admit that i seldom talk to foreigners. However, I find him interesting and I feel so comfortable talking to him although he has this funny ascend from India. He's doing his PHD in my university and I find him really enjoying his life in Malaysia. He bought his own motorbike and from our conversation, I notice that he really enjoys travelling around the areas around the campus with his bike. The greatest findings is that I got from him is that he will never marry an Indian from Malaysia. Why? Simple, according to him, the way of life of Indian women in India and Malaysia has a great difference and well, I accept what he says though cause sometime I think people from a different land will definitely have a different way of life though they are from the same race or I should say they share the same culture.

Well, what could I say? Different people, different behavior.....

The Dead Boring Start of the New Semester...

The brand new semester had just started three days ago and everything just turns out to be boring and pointless. Every single lecture that i attended is no longer than 30minutes and every single lab i attended did not even get started after 30 minutes of waiting. Well, this is the fact happening to me recently where eat and sleep has become my daily routine in my college since i returned to this jail three days back. The saddest thing would be waking up from a peaceful and sound afternoon nap just to go for the afternoon class which turns out to be a class being cancelled. What the? Can anyone here understand my feelings? Funny, weird and awful... The universities' systems really gives me the feeling that primary schools or I would say kindergartens have better systems and calendar than universities. What a great shame...

Buck up Malaysian Universities...

The Human's Life Cycle

Sometimes, I came to think about what is it all about of being a human. Sit down, relax and have a thought about it. Some people might think that a human life is all about success while others might think that life is all about happiness. On the other hand, there might even be some people who has the thought that life is just a process whereby you will just go through stages which includes birth, aging, sick and death. Pathetic.... Well, weird but true, there are even people who thinks that life is pointless for them. To these people, their life is just like a peiod of time for them to spend with no aim and hope in their eyes. I wonder what kind of life that would be!

Maybe I should say that different people has a different perspective in their life or I would even say that different people is borned to this world with a different motive or purpose which only god knows.

To me, I think that life is not all about money, success or even happiness. My thought will be life is short and why don't we make full use of it and try to enjoy it to the fullest. Well, I would not deny that life comes in stages as i mentioned above where every single human being will go through birth, aging, sick and death. However, what would i say about this is that why don't we try to look at the bright side. You know that for sure that you are going to face these stages no matter what and therefore, why don't make full use of them before you proceed into the next stage of your life before you could actually do something about it. I came to watch a movie yesterday night before I have this thought that there was this old man talking to his son telling him that he was so regret of his life and he advised his son not to follow his steps. He even asked his son to choose the right path to follow before he could not turn back and regret like his father one day. To me, life is always full of love and hope. One might face with troubles and obstacles in their life but it all comes to a point whether this person will be able to stand up again after each challenges. What I mean is that whenever we face some troubles in life, why don't we take it easy and face it. Some of you might object and say it would be easier for you to say so now than when you actually have to do it when time comes. Well, true, i agree. But sometimes, i think that for every action to take place, one must always have this thought in his mind before hand. Well, when you can think this way then there might be a possibility that you will face it with an open mind. However, if this thought has never appear in your mind even when you don't face troubles, believe me, you will never face it positively.

Guys, enjoy your life out there! Remember, life is full of hope and love! There is lots of things out there waiting for you to face and solve. Be positive about your life and may you move forward as a happier man.

Regards.

Life = Papers

Well, all these while, even since I'm in primary, people around me have been telling me that you must put yourself into university and you must at least hold a degree to survive in the society. Oh yes, I do agree that we might actually need paper qualifications so that we can place our butt somewhere in the society one day. Well, when i catch up with one of my friends yesterday and we had this topic in our light chit-chat. I came to sit down and think about it and I start to realise that life is nothing more than papers! Well, look at it, as i say just now u need paper qualifications so u can get a good job with a 4 or 5 figures pay and besides that, wat else can u think of? When you are borned, you were already given your first paper which is your birth cert. Then, as you growed up, you will get all sorts of papers including your primary accessments and all the government examinations in your secondary school. These papers with distinctions on it would just bring you forward to the life you wanted and even that we are talking about papers!! God Damn it!! So, when we move forward, we'll get our degree which is just a piece of paper again and what makes life of a human so ridiculous is that even when you get married you would need a piece of paper again as a proof. Well, now sit down and think bout another thing that will surely happen in your life one day which I would say pathetic for even when you die one day in the future, a piece of paper will be granted to you as well - a death cert. No doubt there. So, papers, papers, papers and papers!

WELL, is the life of human ALL about the papers? Or I should say that our lives are colonised by these stupid papers? I wonder..

Love is a Miracle !!!

Love to me is a miracle and it is love that has made my life full of hope and surprises and indeed, my life turns into one which is full of wonders. Sometimes, when i sit in my bed, I could feel just so lovely that i actually found her and in fact, having her by my side. She's the one that has changed myself back into the normal me or I would say that it is her that has made me realised that this world is still full of hope and love. Well, i could even say that she saves me from a world full of gloom and sadness and reverts me into the one i use to be in the past - someone cheerful and like to jokes around. With her in my arms, I have found back the real me and most importantly, i found back my confidence which i have lost for a long time and thank god I was able to stand up again with all her support and the motivation she gave me all this while. She has showered me with all the love she could afford and she has given me everything she could in order to make me feel belonged. Well, I woke up and i thought of her cant wit to see her tomoro and i could feel deep down inside myself that i cant lose her and i could feel deeply how much is her to me. Moreover, I could feel how much I love her from the bottom of my heart and I would admit that I would never afford to lose her. She'll be the one in my life forever and she'll be the one and the dream for me to move on in my life.

I love you forever, dear !!!

Efficiency of Work.... =.=

This issue came to pop up in my mind and I start wondering if efficiency is important for people in the working world or even big giant companies for how efficient is their company in handling processes or business with their clients. It was my personal encounter that it actually makes me feel so irritated when such companies takes such a long time just to process a simple cash transduction. Well, as u know from my previous blog that I'll be going to Penang on the 13th. I was so excited about it that I made the reservation of a 2 room apartment unit in a well-known apartment in Penang two weeks before hand. I had even bank in the money into that respective company's bank account on the same day and the problems occurs when it took them years to check the transduction to confirm my booking. Well. you see, I know faxing over the bank in slip to them might just make things faster ad easier. However, the problem is that the bank in slip was in the hand of another friend of mine in Penang that handles the whole process for me and he does not own a fax machine. Therefore, I've no choice but to wait for them to check their accounts before confirming my reservation which according to them may take two or three days. I sat down to think about it and try to persuade myself to accept it for i understand that they too need time to confirm it for such process involves MONEY. Well, since it will be only two days so i waited patiently but guess what. It's now 5th of December and yet no news from them. Well, that makes me feel a bit irritated and I even doubt the efficiency of the company. It's now more than a week just for them to check the account of theirs to confirm my booking while they have all the information they wanted from me regarding the time and place where my friend bank in the money and this issue arouse in my head and this just give me the feeling that this company efficeincy is really below par. Well, to me, promises are made to be kept and not to be broken. So, wats the 2 and 3 days promises by them while it's now almost a week. Efficiency? Isn't that one of the most important criteria for a company to establish themselves? To me, efficiency and keeping promises is the most important, or, in fact, the most basic principles that a businessman should hold on to. For with this criteria, a strong trustworthiness can be built between the businessman and the client and definitely such strong bonds will hold their name out in the field. True? I wonder....